A New Year & No More Secrets

We are already heading at full force into January and
I’ve written and deleted this post what feels like a thousand times now. Its
almost like writing it down means that it happened and it wasn’t just a blurry
nightmare.  My blog is somewhere I not
only give you guys my opinion on certain products, present ideas and updates on Harry’s hearing, I also use it as a sort of online diary so to keep secrets from
my readers feels like telling a lie. 
Let me start again. Firstly Happy New Year to you (when
is the official cut off to stop saying that??!) 
I hope your Christmas breaks were spent with your loved ones wherever
you may be!
I for one have waved goodbye to the weirdest year of my
life, it started off full of fear and anxiety when we put our baby through 6
hours of surgery for his cochlear implants. Then a month later our hearts were
bursting with joy when they were switched on and we were high on that insane
bubble right through the summer.  But
right at the end of the summer, back in August, I received a devastating phone call.  My boyfriend Scott had been
rushed to hospital following a seizure and no one could tell me if he was OK.   I managed to get to him within a
couple of hours (he was taken to a hospital in another county) and the doctors
were sure it was an isolated incident, something that shouldn’t reoccur and we shouldn’t worry.  Of course we worried
but we trusted in their words that nothing seemed to be wrong with Scott and
people have seizures sometimes for no reason at all.
Unfortunately they were very wrong as exactly a month
later Scott had a second seizure in bed next to me and was taken to hospital
yet again.  Obviously this time it was
taken a little more seriously and we booked to see a neurologist ASAP to find
out what was going on.  That was when we
found out the terrifying news that Scott had a brain tumour that needed to be
operated on immediately.  The words brain
and tumour together are probably some of the worst you can hear and of course
every single thought and emotion went through our bodies and we cried for what
feels like an eternity
Just 5 emotional days later we travelled down to the
Spire hospital in Southampton for him to have his surgery and I’m so happy to
say that the operation was a complete success and he was home with Harry and I
just 2 days later.  I will never ever
forget those tense hours at the hospital pacing the room, waiting for him to be
brought back to me safe and well.  When he
was finally brought back up to the ward he managed to give me a little thumbs
up and a half smile and thatโ€™s when I let out that breath I had been holding
for god knows how long.
Although the operation was successful our journey didn’t
quite end there and after a couple of months of healing Scott had to undergo
almost 7 weeks of radiotherapy to kill the cells around the area and help
prevent the tumour from attempting to grow back.  Travelling down to Southampton every day for
him over Christmas was very tiring and time consuming, but he got on with it
and did what he had to do.  Despite
losing half a head of hair hes managed to stay so positive which I truly believe
has helped his body recover from everything that its been through
 Even though he will be monitored regularly and closely,
it finally feels like its all over and we can go back to being a happy and
normal family of three.  I’m so immensely
proud of Scott, its so true that you never know how strong you are until being
strong is the only choice that you have.  If this whole thing has taught me anything it is to love so much harder, to not take life for granted and to enjoy the little things.
I am so excited for the year ahead of us!!  GOODBYE 2015!
Did you face any challenges in 2015?

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52 Comments

  • Reply The little things... 08/01/2016 at 12:52 pm

    You are so brave, what a year you've had. I said it to you a few days ago but this really has got to be your year xxxx

    • Reply admin 12/01/2016 at 11:38 am

      Thanks so much! I feel kind of brave ๐Ÿ™‚ 2016 is the one for us i'm sure!!!! x

  • Reply Leeny 08/01/2016 at 1:03 pm

    Wow, I am so sorry you have had to go through all of that. Praying and believing that this is the end and the start of the best year!l for your family. ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Reply admin 12/01/2016 at 11:39 am

      Don't be sorry but thank you! Happy 2016 to you! xx

  • Reply hannahmadam 08/01/2016 at 1:20 pm

    What a year Lucie, you are so strong. Sending my best wishes for 2016 for you and your boys! x

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 2:50 pm

      Thank you Hannah!! x

  • Reply Clare Ryan 08/01/2016 at 1:54 pm

    Wow Lucie, that was emotional to read. I have been seeing your Instagram posts and knew something was up. Well done on being so brave, something like that effects everyone close to the person. I hope 2016 brings you and your family some good memories! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:13 pm

      Well thats why I felt like I needed to share this post as I had been a little cryptic! Thank you so much for the lovely message, I hope 2016 is awesome for you too! x

  • Reply Stephiemcd 08/01/2016 at 2:01 pm

    Im so sorry to hear that you's have been through this year. My mum had a brain tumour about 18 years ago, went through awful surgery and due to the placement of the tumour they could never remove the entire thing, so around 6 years ago it grew back but with the help of radiotherapy (she was practically a guniea pig at the time cause it wasnt a procedure they often used) the tumour has never gotten any bigger and this year she found it it is starting to shrink which is amazing! Its so encouraging to hear about how the medical world is advancing and what a quick recovery he had! I hope you and your lovely family have a better 2016!

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:15 pm

      I'm so sorry to hear that they couldn't remove all of your mum's tumour but so happy to hear that she is doing well and now starting to shrink!! Wishing you and your mum a glorious 2016 x

  • Reply Sam King 08/01/2016 at 2:08 pm

    2015 was amazing for me, but the first week of January 2014 I had to sit through a retrial in court… So the first week of the new year is extremely hard for me when I should be celebrating and looking forward to a "clean slate". This blog post has inspired me to write my own entry on my blog about everything, something I have never openly talked about. Thank you, and I hope 2016 brings you all the joy and love and then some xxoo

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:16 pm

      I am SO happy to hear that i've inspired you to write your own post!! Its like a little release isn't it ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope 2016 is a better one for you!! x

  • Reply Leanne Marshall 08/01/2016 at 2:13 pm

    Said it on twitter, but will say it again!
    You seem such a lovely family and your positivity during shitty times is truly inspiring. I hope 2016 will be a year filled with happy memories! ๐Ÿ™‚ xxx

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:18 pm

      Ahh well thank you for saying it twice ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope your year is just as good too!!!! x

  • Reply Katy Reeves 08/01/2016 at 2:17 pm

    Wow, well done to all of you for braving your way through 2015. I really hope 2016 brings lots of lovely things your way.

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:19 pm

      It was touch and go but we got there in the end!! I hope 2016 is good to you too! x

  • Reply Maypetite 08/01/2016 at 2:24 pm

    Lucie you are all so strong! Keep positive โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

    • Reply admin 12/01/2016 at 11:39 am

      Thank you lovely!!!! x

  • Reply Clarise 08/01/2016 at 2:32 pm

    You're incredibly brave. I hope 2016 is an amazing year for you and your family xxx

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:20 pm

      Aww thanks! I hope it is for you as well! x

  • Reply Kerry Dyer 08/01/2016 at 2:35 pm

    How scary! So glad the operation was a success though and he is recovering! Hope 2016 is much better for you ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:20 pm

      Thank you Kerry! I already know 2016 is going to be awesome for you! x

  • Reply Karli Perrin 08/01/2016 at 2:36 pm

    Sending well wishes to your family! X

  • Reply Chantelle Nelson 08/01/2016 at 2:47 pm

    Lucy what a year, so sorry to hear that. After the great news of little Harry to then be hit with that, just shows how strong you all are to get through it. So glad to hear that Scott has recovered from it, and here's to an amazing 2016 for you all. You deserve it <3 xx

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:21 pm

      What a year hey!! Thanks you for the comment and support ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope your 2016 is just as amazing!! x

  • Reply Anonymous 08/01/2016 at 2:52 pm

    Thank you for being so strong to share something like this. Stay strong and 2016 should turn around for you all!

  • Reply Lauren 08/01/2016 at 3:59 pm

    Wow! This is my first time stumbling over to your blog and I have tears rolling down my face! You are such an inspiration! I cannot wait to read more from you!

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:22 pm

      Ahh bless you, welcome ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks so much! x

  • Reply Anna Hughes 08/01/2016 at 3:59 pm

    What a year for you all to go through! I am so sorry, you are all so strong for going through all of that! You just never know what life will throw at you. Hoping you all stay healthy this year, and it's happier for you all!

    Anna – Annas Reflection

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:23 pm

      You really don't know what life will throw at you, my family is deaf proof of that!! Happy new year ๐Ÿ™‚ x

  • Reply Unknown 08/01/2016 at 5:26 pm

    What a horrible year. I am sure all this has made you stronger as a family and I can imagine it's taken it's toll on you being strong for your boys. Love to you all xxx

  • Reply Anonymous 08/01/2016 at 8:23 pm

    You've had quite the year! Cochlear implants are the most brilliant thing in the whole world, our friends daughter is the same age as Harry and had hers done in May 2015, she now takes them off when you talk to her (such a cheeky little thing) and can put them on again if they fall off. She continues to surprise everyone with the things she does and being deaf doesn't seem to have held her back in any way. Hope your 2016 is a lot less stressful and everyone is healthy and happy this year.

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:24 pm

      Thats amazing to hear she is doing so well!!! Cochlear Implants are the best thing that could have ever happened to us!! I hope your 2016 is awesome too!! x

  • Reply Katie @mummydaddyme 08/01/2016 at 9:00 pm

    Oh Lucie, you poor things. What a year you have had. Well done to all of you for coming out of it so positively, I have no doubt it will make you stronger as a result. Sending you all my love and I really hope 2016 is your year of even more happiness. x

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:25 pm

      Its been quite a year I must say but yes we are so much stronger!!! Thank you and I already know 2016 is going to be bloody brilliant for you!! x

  • Reply Sophie 08/01/2016 at 9:15 pm

    Oh my gosh. You are so strong. I don't know how you've coped. I know I couldnt!! Xx

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  • Reply Fimee collins 08/01/2016 at 11:00 pm

    So much respect for you both. Here's to a better new year, much love xxx

  • Reply The Smallest Of Things 09/01/2016 at 12:14 am

    Oh that must have been so scary! What a strong little family unit you are โค๏ธ

  • Reply Ysis Lorenna 09/01/2016 at 9:43 am

    That must have been so scary and unimaginably difficult for you and your family to go through, Lucy. Sending you, Scott and Harry all the best and praying you have the most amazing year in 2016, full of happy moments!

    You're very brave. Stay positive! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Ysis x

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:26 pm

      It was terrifying Ysis, It feels almost like it happened to someone else!! Thank you for your lovely message, wishing you an amazing 2016 too!!! x

  • Reply Chantal Milk and Nappies 09/01/2016 at 10:51 am

    Oh Lucie that must have been so hard for your family. You are so strong and positive, and I hope that 2016 is all that you hope it to be xx

  • Reply muchadoaboutnothing 09/01/2016 at 11:14 am

    This made me cry in the hairdressers! thank you for sharing with us, I wish you all the health and happiness for 2016! X

    • Reply admin 12/01/2016 at 11:40 am

      Oh no!! I hope your hairdresser didn't look at you too funny!! Thank you for your support ๐Ÿ™‚ x

    • Reply admin 12/01/2016 at 11:40 am

      Oh no!! I hope your hairdresser didn't look at you too funny!! Thank you for your support ๐Ÿ™‚ x

  • Reply Kim Carberry 09/01/2016 at 3:47 pm

    Goodness me! What a year! Wishing you and your family all the best for 2016 x

  • Reply Meiks 10/01/2016 at 3:16 pm

    wow! Found your blog through Hannah Maggs' Twitter and I'm out of words. How are you able to ask your readers if they faced any challenges if you went through so much heavy challenges yourself. What a strong family you are! I broke up with my boyfriend after a relationship of six year with ups and downs. I've been chronically sick but that seems nothing compared to what you've been trough. It eventually was one of the dealbreakers in my relationship. It was hard to go trough with having to move, juggling studie and work but I'm getting there. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Keep positive. Love from the Netherlands, Meike

    • Reply admin 14/01/2016 at 7:28 pm

      Oh bless you what a lovely lovely message! I'm really glad to hear you are coming out the other side of an awful time as well.. stay positive and be strong!! Live everyday ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

  • Reply Jessica Hurley 12/01/2016 at 9:48 am

    Hi Lucie, so glad that Scott has recovered quickly and sounds like you have all been extremely strong. It was very brave to write this, I wrote a post on my 2015 too as I lost my mum last year. Life can be so cruel and tough but I really hope your 2016 is so much better and filled with happiness xx

    • Reply admin 17/01/2016 at 3:19 pm

      Ahh thank you Jessica!! Well done to you as well for writing your post.. which sounds so much harder than mine. Life can be horrendous and i'm sorry for your loss! Happy 2016 to you! xx

  • Reply Carl Mitchell 03/02/2016 at 3:09 pm

    Lucie, Always love reading your posts. Knowing how outgoing and bubbly you and Scott both are, I was genuinely moved when I heard, firstly about Harry and then about Scott. You've both been so so strong and you will come out of it even stronger. Great memories of silly drunken nights together – so keep strong and hope to catch up soon.

    • Reply admin 16/02/2016 at 10:51 am

      Aww thank you Carl, so nice to hear from you!! Hope to see you soon.. thank you for the lovely words ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

  • Reply Natalie Lawrence 25/03/2016 at 5:53 pm

    Hi Lucie,

    Reading your post made me cry but the main thing is that you've managed to pull through that difficult part and look where you are now. The year 2015 was an OK year for me but 2014 was the worst year of my life. I love your blog and your little boy is beautiful. Xx

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